"but i bite my lip and turn around ,cause you're the warmest thing i ever found"(15)

He got so close to me , as close as two people with their clothes on could manage. God his smell,his skin,his clean heat , that was breaking my heart in a very beautiful delicious way. I could feel his breath by now so close to my face. I touched his beautiful red lips because I knew that I would be in a big trouble. "easy tiger!" I managed to speak.

"what? I missed you…" he looked taken aback.

" I missed you too but.."

"shhh.." he planted a light small kiss on my chin.

Okay that was getting dangerous, that man was dangerously sexy and I had strong feelings for him, and I didn’t trust my heart then, it could betray me at any minute.

I moved my arms up so that they draped over his shoulders, and hugged him the hardest possible. I sniffed his neck to remember that scent of his ,LANVIN APREGE , it still make my heart stop.

" i love you, as stupid as it may sound, Im crazy in love with you..i know that its so early, I know enna mamedana en3aref ba3ath but I do.." he whispered while kissing my ear.

" I feel the same way" I said, and I meant it.

He pulled away slightly, and looked deep into my eyes. I caught my breath. God those pierced eyes.

" lets go home terki" I paused "we shouldn’t be here"

" I wish I could take you home with me" he said.

I smiled at him. " yalla lets go"

It was the most joyful ride I had ever experienced, we couldn’t stop loving and touching eachother, we didn’t say a word, I rested my head on his shoulder while he drove , and every now and then he would plant a warm kiss on my head.

He walked me to my car , tried to kiss me but I MIRACLE-Y stopped him. Because I knew that I'll be obsessing about his kiss for the rest of my life.

When I got home, I called him immediately , he was sleeping at the old house, we talked forever, we both couldn’t be away from eachother, we both couldn’t hang up.

2 months had passed , and we were even more in love, my life revolved around him , I couldn’t spend a single day without him, his voice, his presence , and in times when he traveled for work, I would go all cranky and moody and cry all day.

Fahad was still sending me stupid mean messages, i ignored him bas mako faida, he would stop for a week or two then he'd come back with even more evil messages.

Saud on the other hand was a silent lover, I knew he had feelings for me and I didn’t care. He was very disrespectful, his messages and phone calls were endless, I hated them and I hated him. I couldn’t tell Farah about his feelings for me. she was by now head over heels in love with him, it was stupid he didn’t like\love her back and it was sad.

One afternoon I was studying with Farah in her room, it was our senior year in college , me in law school, her in college of business administration. We were supposed to graduate a year earlier but I had difficulties , since law school was in Arabic and I wasn’t that good in Arabic, Farah on the other hand was late for graduation because back in the day when we were in highscool , her twin brother passed away(allah yer7ema) and she skipped school for a whole year, she was so attached to him and it was heartbreaking.

" how's terki?" she asked.

" hmm?" I was distracted with the fat book in my hand.

" how's terki?" she repeated.

"oh, terki is fineee" my cheeks flushed right away for the thought of him.

" you love him don’t you?" she asked.

" t9adgen 3ad , sometimes I feel enny a7eba akthar min nafsy, I never felt like this before faroo7" when I said that my eyes started tearing, I didn’t know why.

She smiled " you're lucky you know, s3ood mayadry 3anny" she said miserably.

" aww honey , ana getlech shofelech wa7ed '3aira wela be single the way you are a7sanlech" I tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear.

" I have feelings for him, madry a7es he's the one" she sighed " i tried to show him bas '3aby ! he cant see it"

" I don’t know he's the one for you fara7" I said.

"laishh ya3ny ana nage9ny shay!! Laish ya3ny may6ale3ny, why he's not the one for me?!!"

" OFCOURSE MU NAG9ECH SHAY!! , I told you this before, e7a9ela! , trust me fara7 he's not the one for you and I have to tell you something" I bit my lower lip.

And I told her about that day when he called me and said "ana a3teberkom nafs 5awati les'3ar" ofcourse I deleted the " I want you" messages and acts.

" why didn’t you tell me about that min zman?" she was almost yelling.

" I didn’t wanna hurt your feelings"

" well you did, o ethaher enich gumty et5esheen wayed ashya2 3anny" she said and left the room leaving me alone in it.